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Sharing My Experience at a Buddhist Meeting

John came with me to my Buddhist study meeting last night and during the last half of the meeting, we had an open discussion. I was able to share a little bit of my experience from the past few years and I was very glad that I did. I wasn’t quite sure what to say or how to explain what my experience has been like, but I mentioned briefly about how the voices that I hear used to threaten me when I chanted. I also told about how they threatened my husband and my dad, as well as other family members, but that now the voices don’t threaten me anymore. I had stopped chanting for about a month and after my mom left, I decided that I would start chanting again. This was in June 2011 and I’ve been chanting regularly ever since.

This morning I really chanted for our happy marriage and better communication between us. I also chanted to challenge my weaknesses and to live each day with joy and appreciation. Buddhism is very encouraging, so every time I read an article, chant, or attend a meeting, I leave feeling better than I did before. I really want to encourage other people, especially with my memoir. I am writing my memoir to share my experience, and to inspire and encourage other people – especially women. At this time in our society, we really need to focus on inner change, especially me. I have a tendency to figure out everything that’s wrong with the disembodied voices that I hear in my head. Nothing that they’ve said has ever made sense, but sometimes I still get angry about what has happened in the past. If I focus on myself, and challenging my own weaknesses and negativity, then I am less worried about the voices and what other people say. This year, I’m looking forward to finishing my memoir.

Happy New Year!
Happy New Year!

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It’s nice feeling when you can be yourself and others do not disappoint you when you share your diagnosis with them.

Buddhism is an interesting practice to me, I wouldn’t mind learning more about it, especially to practice meditation and have a better understanding of myself.

I am very excited for you about your memoir.

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Hi Ashley! Thank you for writing! My Buddhist practice provides incredible support and encouragement for me, so I really enjoy sharing it with others. Please feel free to email me with any questions you might have about Buddhism. Also, the website http://www.sgi-usa.org has lots of information and resources about the Buddhist organization I belong to, as well as local groups. I mentioned one of your blog posts in a post I wrote a few weeks ago for CureTalk. The link is on the CureTalk page of my blog. The name of the article is called “Schizophrenia As An Excuse for… Read more »
Hi Jen, Thank you for responding to my comment and interest into Buddhism. I will look into this practice because it seems to inevitably come into my life through the peers I associate with online and in-person who exercise its principles and beliefs as a way to help cope with mental illness and life in general. I read the article you wrote for CureTalk, “Schizophrenia As An Excuse for Violence,” and I liked your philosophy and the content, message, and educating points. You stated: “I believe that the vast majority of people suffering from mental illness never become violent, and… Read more »
skotest

Hello Ashley,

Thank you for your kind message! Yes! I believe that your writing, experiences, and website are a wonderful source of inspiration and hope for anyone suffering from schizophrenia or mental illness. I plan to keep writing!

Jen

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