I had my therapy appointment yesterday, and it went really well. I talked to my therapist about my struggle with “social isolation”, and said that I really wanted to get out of the house more and interact with other people. That was partly why I went to play indoor soccer last week, for fun, but also to meet new people. I was thinking of working part-time again, but it might be too stressful, so I’m thinking of looking into tutoring or volunteering near where we live. I am starting to feel somewhat isolated, although I am making progress on my memoir.
I’ve gotten some good feedback on the first chapter, and I have a better idea of the types of things I need to work on to flesh out my memoir. I need to create well-developed scenes with description and dialogue, so that the reader has a better idea of where I was, what I was doing, and what I was going through at the time. John and I talked last night too. I was getting discouraged with my writing, and also the fact that we have less spending money than we did before we bought our house. I guess that’s to be expected. I’ve also been thinking about how to describe my fear, paranoia, and schizophrenia so that John and other people will have a better understanding of what it’s like to live like that. I’m sure that it must be very difficult to imagine living with real paranoia when your own mind functions perfectly fine. I explained that to my therapist yesterday too. I told her about the movie “The Game” with Michael Douglas and Sean Penn. This movie is a very good depiction of what life is like for someone with paranoid schizophrenia, although this isn’t what the movie is really about. John and I watched this movie last December when we were visiting my parents in Colorado. It’s also a very good movie even if you don’t have any interest in schizophrenia.
I will be writing another guest blog post for CureTalk next week, and I’ve decided to write about a Canadian film director who is focusing on race and mental health. He wrote me an email about his work, and I think what he’s doing is really great. There are a wide variety of aspects to how people and institutions address mental illness and mental health.