I chanted for an hour this morning, and read an encouraging article in the World Tribune, my Buddhist newspaper that I subscribe to. Often, I chant to be able to change my karma, or to turn my karma into my mission. I was reading about the experience of a man in Baltimore who found a passage that reads: It is not possible to change our karma unless we deeply examine the true nature of our mind and character – which has shaped our destiny – and then work to polish our life and achieve our human revolution. Toward this end, we need to devote ourselves wholeheartedly to carrying out our mission for kosen-rufu – an endeavor that requires chanting Nam-myoho-renge-kyo with resolute faith, challenging obstacles and striving to do away with injustice. This passage makes me think about my character, how I’ve always thought of myself, and occasionally what my voices say about me. My husband has also given me another perspective on my own personality and character, a perspective that I had not thought of before.
I heard a voice say earlier, We must have told you a thousand times not to write that book, and It’s ok if you write the book, as long as you don’t make any money from it. They are still trying to get me to make an agreement with them. I’m still trying to ignore what they say. Every once and awhile, something that they say sticks in my mind, and I dwell on it. Fortunately, most of the time I don’t. I think I’m doing better at not responding to them, and ignoring them. That’s good!