My husband is out of town this week on a business trip, so it’s just me and the dog. We have never been apart for this length of time, so it’s quite an adjustment. He didn’t want to go, and the house is very quiet without him. I’ve had a decent week so far except for some negativity and a bad headache yesterday. I’ve been trying to chant more for my own happiness in an effort to counter my negative thoughts, but sometimes they still get through. I had planned to visit my mother-in-law yesterday to learn her recipe for chile relleno, but I think my negativity got the better of me, and I stayed home with a headache that gradually worsened throughout the course of the day. I rescheduled with my mother-in-law for Friday, so I plan to carry through with my plans as well as write down the recipe and take a few pictures of the cooking process.
I chant daily to have faith for absolute victory. I believe this nightmare with the “voices,” my stalkers, persecutors, and tormentors will end soon. I still believe there was no reason not to discuss this issue with me (purportedly until it’s over). This never made sense to me, and it never will. It is nothing more than a constant source of anger and frustration. I look forward to the day when the matter is taken care of, and these people are gone from my life forever.
In the meantime, I signed up for another soccer league and am planning on attending a TEDx event in Santa Cruz to promote my children’s press. This will definitely be both a fun and challenging evening, and I will need some time to prepare. Networking and socializing are not my strong points, but this will be a great opportunity to meet people and pitch my TEDx Santa Cruz theme ideas. Wow!