Happy New Year! John & I had a terrific dinner in Capitola on New Year’s Eve with grilled mahi mahi and rice. Delicious! We walked back in the chill night air counting stars along the way. I invited a friend to join me for New Year’s prayer at the Buddhist center and afterward John and I lifted weights at the gym and picked up a few groceries. This morning I made a list of a few of my goals for 2013. My priorities are to work on my marriage with John in couples therapy, publish my memoir, and participate more in Buddhist activities with the SGI (Soka Gakkai International). I have more specific goals as well, but I haven’t written these down yet. I still have my list of goals from 2012 on my altar, so I will type up my new list and replace the old one. Goodbye 2012!
I believe 2013 will be a great year for me. I’m much happier than I have been over the past few years, and I will keep doing everything that I’ve been doing to advance in my life, win over the voices and be a successful writer. I still need to work on communicating more, especially in public and in front of groups of people. At the New Year’s prayer yesterday afternoon we had the opportunity to share our experiences and determinations during the last part of the meeting – kind of like an “open mike”. I hesitated and didn’t volunteer to share, but later I thought that sharing my experience (or anything really) in front of a roomful of people is great practice for me. It’s just the type of thing that I don’t like to do because I’m self-conscious and it makes me extremely nervous. This is precisely what I should be doing. Volunteering to spontaneously get up and talk in front of a large group of people will help bring me out of my shell and develop my communication skills so that I am not so hesitant to talk to other people.
Here’s to 2013 – the Year of Communicating!