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His Own Little Universe (updated)

The thing about Jeff is that he sees the world only from his perspective and no one else’s. He’s extremely self-centered and as far as I can tell, cares for no one or nothing but himself. The things that he has been saying make sense to no one but himself, and for some reason, he either doesn’t care or doesn’t really understand. I looked up the side effects of speed addiction (long-term mostly as the side effects would be increasing in severity over the years) and they include paranoia, delusions, and psychosis. J Myers’ decades-long speed addiction is a major contributor to his irrational and illogical thought processes.

His continued insistence and repetition of claims that I am a prostitute are an example of something J Myers either 1) really believes or 2) wishes everyone else would believe, or both. It’s difficult to tell. I wonder if his speed addiction caused this type of persistent delusion, or whether he’s really just a piece of shit. It’s difficult to tell.

I think in J Myers’ case, we should not separate one from the other. This link to the psychiatric definition of Antisocial Personality Disorder seems more appropriate for both W Myers and J Myers since the terms psychopath/sociopath are not used in psychiatry.

It’s true, being physically beaten (i.e. in childhood) damages the part of the brain responsible for moral decision-making – the prefrontal cortex. The following excerpt is from Wikipedia:

Researchers have linked physical head injuries with antisocial behavior.[36][37][38] Since the 1980s, scientists have associated traumatic brain injury, including damage to the prefrontal cortex, with an inability to make morally and socially acceptable decisions.[36][38] Children with early damage in the prefrontal cortex may never fully develop social or moral reasoning and become “psychopathic individuals … characterized by high levels of aggression and antisocial behavior performed without guilt or empathy for their victims.”

However, my belief is that in J Myers case, his three decades-long speed addiction was responsible for any damage that may have occurred to his prefrontal cortex. I do not know whether there was any physical abuse/trauma that might have caused damage to the brain. The reason I think the damage is from his speed addiction is due to the fact that he dissolves his speed pills in water, soaks either tissue or cotton with the solution, and then shoves the tissue/cotton as far up into his sinus cavity (via his nasal passage) as possible. Since the prefrontal cortex is behind the forehead where some of the sinus cavities are also located, it stands to reason that J Myers’ speed addiction damaged this part of his brain, and the behavior exhibited by those with Antisocial Personality Disorder matches J Myers’ behavior almost exactly.

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