I saw a great picture/quote posted on Facebook yesterday that really encouraged me. The quotes reads:
Your beautiful. Your loved. Your needed. You’re alive for a reason. You’re stronger than you think. You’re gonna get through this. I’m glad you’re alive. And don’t ever give up!
How encouraging! After reading this, I thought to myself, “All this is true!” I’m definitely alive for a reason. It is a fact that all of the people (namely Sam M, although I prefer to call him sh@#$head) trying to get back at me for whatever it was that I didn’t do, haven’t succeeded. Although this nightmare continues to drag on and on and on, I will get through this somehow. I have no choice.
My particular feeling is that the continued lack of resolution to this problem (after all, there are still a few people left that continue to follow me wherever I go on a daily basis), speaks more to the incompetence, lack of concern, and pervasive corruption on the part of the authorities than anything else. By authorities I am referring to every single level of government and every single federal government agency that could have possibly been involved. If we start locally, we have the city of Sunnyvale Police Department (that does nothing), at the county level (this would be Santa Clara County), I would think that someone would be able to make a phone call, if only to get these people off the streets and into the county jail, yet nothing is done. Is it really that difficult?
Numerous lawsuits were filed by people as well as businesses, due to their continuous stalking, death threats and harassment. Yet their behavior continues. What about the state of California? The federal government agencies involved? The CIA, FBI, Department of Justice, Homeland Security, NSA – and the list goes on. Is the U.S. government really that incompetent? Or is it merely a matter of corruption at the highest levels of our government. I’m thinking it’s the latter.
What about all the people who seem so surprised to discover that I’m actually aware of the situation and always have been since 2002, when Sam Meth-head whatever-his-name-is tracked me down to my roommate’s house in Oxnard? Or the fact that not one single person has ever attempted to contact me in any way regarding this matter? Does that seem strange? At any rate, the situation exists as it is, for better or for worse, and there isn’t much I can do about it except chant.
This post ended up being more of a rant, but some days are more discouraging than others. I also found a very useful article titled 20 Diversion Tactics Highly Manipulative Narcissists, Sociopaths And Psychopaths Use To Silence You. It’s very descriptive and helpful for people who have to deal with toxic behavior. This is the type of behavior exhibited by the people who stalk and harass me constantly as well as by those who have targeted me or used me as a scapegoat over the years. Although my situation is much more complicated than merely being in a toxic relationship (as I am not), I have experiences much like those described by this article – experiences resulting from their constant harassment, threats, stalking and persecution. For example:
In the hands of a malignant narcissist or sociopath, your differing opinions, legitimate emotions and lived experiences get translated into character flaws and evidence of your irrationality.
What happened to me was that my circumstances were labeled as a schizophrenia diagnosis, and as such my opinions, emotions, perspective and experiences were seen as a mental illness, rather than as reality. Fortunately, over the past few years, the reality has come to light, and my own experiences are being validated as we continue to struggle with something that affects us all.
Oh, by the way, the majority of the perpetrators in this nightmare are all WHITE MEN.