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The Center Cannot Hold

This morning I read in bed for awhile before I got up. The book I ordered, The Center Cannot Hold came in the mail yesterday, so I started reading it. It’s a very good book, and it has won a lot of literary awards. So far, I’m about half way through. It’s a memoir written by Elyn Saks, a professor diagnosed with schizophrenia. I had a hard time putting the book down, both yesterday afternoon, and this morning. I highly recommend it!

I got up and chanted for almost 45 minutes. I heard someone say Why would you put your husband at risk like that? It sounded like the voice was coming from across the parking lot. Then someone else said, What if we kill her husband? The other voice responded, I guess that resolves it. I kept chanting. The voices are trying to get me to stop chanting again. They are also trying to get me to leave our apartment. So far I haven’t agreed to anything.

Yesterday I cleaned most of the kitchen with some smelly, toxic 409. Today, I am going to get things ready to take to Gilroy tonight. More clothes, and a few more boxes. Monday is Halloween. I might go trick-or-treating with my niece and her kids if we stay in Gilroy. Otherwise, we’ll come back to Sunnyvale, keep cleaning, and get ready for our trip to DC to visit my brother. We’re going to a 49ers-Redskins game, a tour of the White House, a visit to the National Archives, and the usual museum/memorial tours. Fun!

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Adri
Hi Jennifer, My name is Adri and I know about you from Aida. She sent me the link to your blog. I just wanted to introduce myself to you. I am the coordinator for a small self help center in Gilroy. The self help center is run by mental health consumers for mental health consumers and their supporters. We were started with the self help movement and believe one of the best tools to wellness and recovery is through peer support. So we offer one on one peer support, groups, guest speakers and social events. So, I too am a… Read more »
Jen

Thank you Adri for writing. It’s so great to know that there are other people out there who are encouraged by my blog. I am really looking forward to meeting you in person! I wish you all the best. Jen

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