I continue making greater progress ignoring the voices and putting the past behind me. I make a constant effort to focus on my marriage, the people in my life, and staying in the present. I make more of an effort to share Buddhism with my family – sometimes I text them quotes that I find meaningful or encouraging, so that they will be encouraged too. In spite of my frustration with certain aspects of my own life, or the times when I feel family or friends have let me down, I realize that what I want the most is for their genuine happiness. Isn’t that what we all want? For our family and friends to be happy, as well as ourselves?
The first of September John and I will have been living in our new house for 6 months! It’s hard to believe that we’ve been here for that long. We’re very happy here, and we continue to work on ourselves and our marriage. I need to work on reaching out more to neighbors, family and friends. I have a particular aversion to making phone calls, although I’m not exactly sure when it started. I prefer to send text messages or emails, rather than call someone. Phone calls are more personal because you can hear the other person’s voice. Sometimes I think my own voice sounds weird, but maybe that’s because I’d become accustomed to having conversations in my head rather than out loud. Definitely not a good habit to get into and I don’t recommend it to anyone.
So now my challenge is to start calling people, rather than emailing or waiting until I see them in person a week or a month from now. This will help open up my life and I can even get to know my friends and family better!
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