I’ve heard voices a little bit every once and awhile over the past week or so. I noticed that while my brother and sister-in-law were here, I didn’t hear them. Mostly what I heard was a woman’s voice mocking and imitating me, kind of like an echo. This wasn’t frightening or scary, mostly just irritating and annoying. I told John about what I heard and then just let it go. Now the voice doesn’t seem like such a big deal. John also forwarded me an article about a new anti-psychotic waiting FDA approval. It’s an injectable form of Abilify that performed very well in clinical trials. I thought I would send my psychiatrist an email and ask him if he has heard of this new type of Abilify.
Here is the link to the article:
Last night I went to my monthly Buddhist discussion meeting. It was fun! We sang the Beatles song, “With a Little Help From My Friends”, and talked about perseverance and hope. I finally decided to share a little bit of my own experience. It is always very difficult for me to speak in front of a group of people, especially when I am talking about my own life. I’m always trying to think of what to say, and I get nervous and often don’t say anything at all. This is something I really need to work on and that’s why I’m glad I shared at the discussion meeting last night. I mentioned how I have a friend that I’m encouraging to chant, and how I haven’t been working in over a year while I’m living on disability. I still feel like I have a lot to work on!
My Buddhist group was very encouraging. One woman said that what encourages her is another person’s heart, rather than the seemingly more tangible aspects of someone else’s life. I liked that. She’s right. What really matters is what’s in our hearts!