As often as I wonder why the people who have been such a horrific part of my life for the past (now almost) fourteen years behave the way they do, I have never reached a satisfactory conclusion. I think that, as is the case with most seemingly unresolvable problems involving large numbers of people, the causes are various. The explanations I’ve settled on the most often include insanity, drug abuse, and arrogance. There are other factors at work, however, that I will not go into here. Suffice it to say that as a practicing Buddhist for over 25 years, I believe in the karmic law of cause and effect. As the 13th Century Japanese Buddhist priest Nichiren Daishonin states:
If you want to understand the causes that existed in the past, look at the results as they are manifested in the present. And if you want to understand what results will be manifested in the future, look at the causes that exist in the present.
If we want to understand what kind of future we are creating for ourselves, we need only look at our actions and behavior in the present. All of these people — with their lies and their threats, their endless stalking and harassment, their constant shrieking, their innumerable attempts to point the finger at others, all the while painting themselves as victims — all of these people will be defeated. Believe me when I say I’ve seen (and heard) it all. And yet these people will never realize the gravity of their errors. A joke at someone else’s expense is all the seriousness it’s given.
What with people’s lives at stake, people’s lives that have already been lost, the cost borne by the U.S. taxpayers, the costs borne by foreign governments and the United Nations, the children born by the prostitutes and drug addicts who were taken away and given up for adoption, and the thousands of people affected who were represented by lawsuits filed in a virtually vain attempt to curtail their insane and relentless behavior, it is a wonder this has lasted for as long as it has. Not to mention the horrendous effect their behavior has had on my husband and myself and on both of our families. Nevermind the minor, insignificant fact that this nightmare still hasn’t ended.
The truly sadistic fact of the matter is the majority of these people still behave as if they have somehow been treated unfairly or unjustly – as if they somehow have the right to deal illegal drugs, to stalk and harass me constantly, to break the law as they see fit. They seem to be living in their own world – many of them in a drug-induced delusional world – others in a world of their own design with little or no regard for other people.
While I fight for justice as much as I can, in whatever way I have available to me, I know that somehow, in some way, these people will get what is coming to them. They will pay the price. Eventually, our karma comes back to us – either to bite us in the ass or to reward us with good fortune and happiness – depending solely on our own actions and behavior, not anyone else’s.