Victory Is In Sight!

I started my first million daimoku campaign (chanting/prayer campaign) on June 1st, 2010.

I wrote down three goals in my small prayer booklet:

  • courage to challenge my problems
  • my own happiness & health
  • share Buddhism with others & to talk to one person each day about Nichiren Daishonin’s Buddhism

This was the first time I started to chant and pray specifically about the problem I faced in my life that involved the people who harassed and stalked me constantly – the insane people whose voices I constantly heard in my head. My prayer booklet was filled with encouraging quotes that reassured me along the way, and I finished this daimoku campaign on December 1st, 2011, approximately one and a half years later. On the last page of my daimoku tracking booklet I wrote, “Changed my life.” 

While I had changed my life after completing my first million daimoku campaign, I had not even approached the amount of chanting, prayer, effort, self-reflection, internal change, and courage I would need to get to where I am today. The very next day, December 2nd, 2011, I started my second million daimoku campaign towards my goal of resolving the situation of the people in my life who were a constant threat and a constant danger.


I wrote down more goals in my new prayer booklet:

  • no more voices
  • our happy marriage
  • our families’ good health & happiness
  • world peace
  • change my financial karma & earn a steady income

I finished my second prayer campaign on April 11th, 2013 and started my third prayer campaign with a new set of goals, the most important of which was to never give up.


  • never give up
  • find the best publisher for my memoir
  • have my memoir published in Japanese for SGI President Ikeda
  • write another memoir about my experience as a Peace Corps volunteer in the Dominican Republic
  • continue writing children’s stories
  • build a successful career as an author
  • share my experience and promote my memoir, Never Give Up: Buddhism, Family & Schizophrenia to the widest possible audience

I finished this daimoku campaign on April 24th, 2014. I self-published my memoir during the summer of 2014, did my best to self-promote the memoir, and began work on a children’s press called SundanceKid Press. On April 25th, 2014 I started my fourth million daimoku campaign with a few new goals, and a few continuing goals that still had not been resolved.

  • encourage others
  • a successful writing career & a successful memoir
  • absolute victory over the people responsible for perpetrating the incredible injustices I’ve experienced over the past 13 years
  • the happiest marriage
  • justice for myself, for my husband and family, and for everyone who experienced the injustices of this unbelievable nightmare


Currently, I have about one week to go to finish my fourth million daimoku campaign, depending on how many hours I chant each day. I feel that after all these years, I am finally approaching victory. I am determined to achieve every one of my goals, and I have absolute conviction that I will definitely do so. I believe that when I finish this campaign, this nightmare will be over. Buddhism is about victory or defeat, and I will achieve victory!

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